Keeping Hope

I want to keep hope. Some days, I joke and say I’m lightheartedly depressed. – In truth, I’m sad, at times, for the things we have to go through. It makes me angry, frustrated, and agitated to the point someday you just almost want to go fuck it. But there’s a part of me that’s just screaming to get through it. I know I can – and will because it’s something I strive to survive and more – I want to. We deserve so much more. He deserves more. and I won’t stop until we can build a life we consider successful, stable, and able to be lived at our best and worst too.

Sometimes..

Having depression and anxiety is living with your desire to cry, without too much provocation over the little things, for longer then you feel you should be, but also as needed, and then stressing over the fact you cried at all, and apologizing for how you appeared, without even realizing you never told them why you were crying in the first all, – all while going through cycles of emotions – faster then you can handle, at times. And then being fine afterwards, and this was all in your head, so not only did you stress yourself out and process it, but the other person doesn’t even have time to react. It’s exhausting. And that’s without even trying to express what just happened. and why and such.

Random Things about Ohio

Depending on what direction you live in state of Ohio – is how you decide whether you consider yourself southern, mid-western, western, or eastern. or just pure northern Yankee. Also depending on what direction of the state you live in – decides how much snow is normal for winter, if you live closer to lake erie or the rivers, you get more. We believe Bigfoot exists, and have stories of sightings dating back to before the 1800s, in the Canton/Akron area. Weather has a 50% chance of being accurate every time its predicted and has a 25% additional chance of doing neither opposite thing and just doing something else entirely. we also have local lore about werewolves in the country side myths and don’t get me started on the things you can find in cornfields and such at night. Don’t drive alone at a night and do not follow the lights into the fields.

based on my personal research and experiences as someone who both was born and raised there. I’ve also lived there my whole life. – @omgwitcherry

I’ll add some sources for some of these later.

*EDIT: (Sources for the myths) — 

  • Bigfoot [ x ],  <– bigfoot sightings – these contain reports for ohio, BFRO
  • Bigfoot [ ] – the salt fork sightings/bigfoot
  • bigfoot [ x ] – the even made a movie about it called the Minerva Monster
  • 11 mythical creatures seen in Ohio [ x
  • werewolf of defiance [ x ]
  • silver creek werewolf [ x ]